February 2012
21 posts
i have been here many times before.
me: i want to lose weight
food: no
Counting calories. Counting pounds. Counting hours without food. Counting calories burned. Starving. Working out. Starving. Working out. Thinking about food, calories, burned calories, being skinny, being not good enough… Where the hell did my life go?
I binged so hard yesterday night. I purged for the first time. Mainly because I was in so much pain, my stomach hurt so much, that I had to do something to make myself feel better.
I binged again just before, probably about 3000 calories. I don’t know what to do. I can’t go and purge because my boyfriend will start asking questions. I haven’t eaten anything else today. I...
January 2012
49 posts
Today was a bad day
diet wise. Totally broke my diet and had carbs and a shitload of sugar free jelly and a Vegemite sandwich and a few biscuits. Blergh. I’m thinking of taking weight loss shakes for my lunch at work. I can get them cheap and it will make lunch at work a lot more convenient. Also much easier to organize in the morning. I am worried about the nutrition side of things, but then again if I follow...
Update
I’m still hovering around 63.5 - 64 kgs, although I’ve been noticing massive changes in my body. I’d usually put this down to muscle gain, but I haven’t been doing any proper exercise other than walking a bit more :/ hmm. Anyway that’s still a loss of 1.5 kilos in a week! Yay!!
Just broke my diet and binged massively. I ate a tablespoon of nutella, about 8 Sao crackers with butter and Vegemite, 1 with peanut butter. Three slices of margarita pizza, 7 slices of garlic bread, 5 choc fudge brownies with chocolate dipping sauce and half a glass of coke. I ate that all in about half an hour.
Fuck.
I don’t even know how to deal with this. I’m not going to weigh...
